I swear I haven’t forgotten you lovelies and this blog I love. Life’s just been a bit… something. In short, I quit my decent paying job and uprooted my husband and I to live with some friends in a different city. We did this to save on rent so I can finish my degree. The hours I had at the decent job didn’t allow me to take many classes, unfortunately. Now I’m unemployed and looking for part-time work in a horrible market and taking classes full-time in my junior year. It’s been a lot of reading and writing and I’m fending off the frankly inevitable depression looming quietly over me like a small grey cloud.
But, honestly friends, I just remind myself that there are those out there who have it so much worse. At least my husband has a job still, if not a very good one. And although the debt is beginning to overtake us, there are those in the world without a roof over their heads or a penny to their name. Perspective is a beautiful/ugly necessity in life, no?
Wishing you all the best and missing each of you during my mini hiatus.
I won’t lie to you my lovely anon, that goodbye was brutal. It lacked the warmth I felt John owed Sherlock, regrettably. A bit of it can be explained away in this manner: Sherlock was leaving on a suicide mission (as detailed briefly by Mycroft during the family Christmas at the Holmes’). John did not know that this was a suicide mission. In his mind, Sherlock was off to continue his work elsewhere, not in jail (which is a relief to him I’m sure), and all is seemingly worked out better than he probably imagined.
And you are right indeed that John has humanized Sherlock deeply. Unfortunately, I believe John doesn’t realize the depths of his effects, however, on Sherlock. He is hardly better with emotions than Sherlock, to be honest. So yes, while it’s unbearably tragic that Sherlock must wade through his newly unearthed emotions, John has always seen, but rarely observed. This season has been radically different than previous ones, as we all know. In 1 and 2, we get to know Sherlock through John, mostly. However, season 3 has been a study in Sherlock from a more intimate perspective. That is, of course, partly because Sherlock is more distant from his Doctor. We’ve seen a great deal of his mind palace and his character has developed so greatly that people thought something was wrong with him.. But before I digress too much…
The harsh truth is that John has not always been the most observant about his importance to Sherlock. From The Blind Banker, when he corrects Sherlock by calling himself a colleague rather than a friend, up until this season, when he didn’t fathom how frightened Sherlock was regarding John’s impending nuptials to Mary. Sherlock feared losing John and John couldn’t wrap his head around it.
What might we deduce about his heart? Mycroft once asked John these words and he didn’t know the answer. I’m afraid he still might not, because Sherlock has built up a wall so very high. John doesn’t understand — perhaps it should be on a t-shirt.
So yes, the goodbye was lacking in what Sherlock was so desperately deserving. But not because John doesn’t care. Perhaps because John underestimates his importance to the World’s Only Consulting Detective.
sherlock was literally willing to spend the rest of his life in prison only to make sure john is happy don’t toUCH ME
..ARE YOU KIDDING ME with this ?
…he can fucking straight up shoot a man in the head, risk going to prison for the rest of his life, have his reputation tarnished, his friends and family hurt by his actions, never have his work again, be tormented by his bored mind until he dies…
AND HE STILL CANT SIMPLY TELL JOHN HE IS IS LOVE WITH HIM ?!?
He did tell him. By doing those things. He can’t verbalize it because John loves Mary and they are having a baby. But Sherlock will tell John every day with his actions, because it’s all he can do.
:( I hate everything.
Janine, on the cottage she bought after making tabloid money off Sherlock.
Think he’ll get to keep the bees?